“I think you can be outstanding.” I can’t get my teachers words out of my head. I have been thinking about this and trying to figure out what do I need to do to be, outstanding. When I think about this particular situation and where this statement was derived from, I believe that I know what it is that’s keeping me from being outstanding, it’s my focus.
I have always had a bad habit of having my hands in too many things at once. I am the poster child for spreading myself to thin. I excel when I put my all into one, maybe two things. When I take on more than that something ends up getting the short end of my stick. That is precisely what happened with the school assignment. I have been giving it whatever I have leftover and not giving it 100%. I’ve already decided that I am going to put much more effort into my classes, but I have to look at what was said and think about how I can apply this to the rest of my life.
I will admit this is not the first time I noticed my lack of focus. Years ago, I would take on any project that came my way. I was so desperate to get my name out there I said yes to anything. I say all the time that I don't feel right if I don't have multiple tasks on my plate, it makes me feel more alive and like I have a purpose. It wasn't until I got married, that I slowed down and decided to only put my energy in projects that aligned with my long term goals. Entering this MBA program was really a once in a lifetime opportunity. If I didn’t take it on now I don’t if I would have ever done it and even though it doesn't align with me being a successful writer, it will help me in my pursuit of being a successful entrepreneuer.
I’m going to get through this, but I am serious when I say, this is it! I cannot go back to school again. My life has changed a lot since the days of taking on any opportunity that comes my way. Now my time is so limited that I can only occupy it with my life’s work. I finally know what my mission is in this life and I know what God wants from me so if I’m not putting my energy in those things than I am wasting time – and time is something we cannot get back.
If 2020 has taught me anything, it’s we don’t know what’s around the next corner. Every single minute is precious and what you do in each moment is what separates the mediocre from the outstanding. I never want to be thought of again as someone who has the potential to be outstanding but isn’t because I’m not applying myself. I want people to think of the work that I produce as outstanding. I want everything with my name on it to be outstanding. I want to be – outstanding.