I’m making a vow after I graduate, I vow to only take on one project at a time. I know this will be difficult for me to commit to, but I have to do it for my sanity. Today, I felt like I was being pulled in fifty different directions. I write my to-do-list and my brain is still scrambled. When I complete one task five more are added to the list. I don’t feel like my best self when working under these stressful conditions. It’s funny because I used to pride myself on being an excellent multi-tasker, but where do you draw the line between multi-tasking and plain taking on too much?
I’m not sure when I crossed over into too much zone, but I did. The other day I did 12 hours of homework, 12 hours. This class that I’m in right now is brutal. It’s worse than my statistics nightmare. I want to quit so badly I just can’t bring myself to do it. I have to pray myself through this one. Sometimes I wonder if God is laughing at me. I can see Him shaking His head like, this girl keeps asking for things, I keep answering her prayers, then here she comes, praying to me to help her through what she asked for. This thought is exactly why I’m not doing this again.
I promise I’m not complaining, I’m only explaining that I have to make better decisions about tasks that I take on. I can’t wait for the day when I can put all my attention on one project. I think that will be when I really excel. I would love it right now if I could focus on only writing my new novel. I wish I could have dedicated 12 hours to that. When I try to set time aside for working on it it’s usually so late that I’m exhausted and can’t get two sentences on the page. This is going to end.
When I graduate, I’m taking at least a year to focus on writing novels. With all that free time I will probably be able to write three. I will never take for granted my writing time again. I’m happy that I’ve dedicated this time to get my masters, but I am going to be happier when I dedicate that same time to writing my books. I am counting down the days until I walk across that stage, I will be getting my master’s in business and at the same time, I will be getting my freedom to write and focus on one project, one task, one novel at a time.